My life and Journey

something so great to share

2008-09-18T20:26:00.000-07:00

--Very thought provoking. Hope you read it to its end!!!!!

A TEENAGER'S VIEW OF HEAVEN

17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was 'What Heaven was like. ' I wowed 'em,' he later told his father, Bruce. 'It's a killer. It's the bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote..' It also was the last.

Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted.

The Moores framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. 'I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of it,' Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. 'I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him.'

Brian's Essay: The Room...

In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read 'Girls I have liked.' I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was.

This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.

A file named 'Friends' was next to one marked 'Friends I have betrayed.' The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird 'Books I Have Read,' 'Lies I Have Told,' 'Comfort I have Given,' 'Jokes I Have Laughed at .' Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: 'Things I've yelled at my brothers.' Others I couldn't laugh at: 'Things I Have Done in My Anger', 'Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents.' I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.

Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked 'TV Shows I have watched', I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked 'Lustful Thoughts,' I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content.

I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!' In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.

And then I saw it.. The title bore 'People I Have Shared the Gospel With.' The handle was brighter than those around it,seemed newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.

No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own.

He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. 'No!' I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was 'No, no,' as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side.

He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, 'It is finished.' I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'-Phil. 4:13 'For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.' If you feel the same way forward it so the love of Jesus will touch their lives also my 'People I shared the gospel with' file just got bigger, how about yours?

IF THERE IS ONE EMAIL THAT I HAVE READ THAT NEEDS TO GO AROUND THE WORLD, IT IS THIS ONE, FOR THE CHRISTIAN OR NOT! MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

You don't have to share this with anybody, no one will know whether you did or not, but what do you feel in your heart?

Jesus loves you! If you do not know about Jesus and would like to accept Jesus as Lord and saviour from our sins, you can visit :

www.wikihow.com/Accept-Christ-As-Your-Savior or

www.jesus2020.com or

www.gotquestions.org/personal-Savior.html

God Bless!

Migration nights

2008-09-17T12:01:00.000-07:00

wooooo...it would be an awesome experience for me where i finally able to do some night jobs and enjoy the midnight life for a while lar...fuyoh!!

this would be my fourth night doing migration where i decided to write down some of my feelings when i'm doing migration ler....hahaha.... but but we gonna go back a little bit backwards before the night of migration....so call breaking the 'virgin night' wuahaha...=p
so, it's started this way...me been called by my boss to his place where you know lar...our working area do not have any rooms actually...bosses sitting the same place...hahaha... so i'm being assigned to involved in a project that called....fuyoh...u can't believe ler..."survival plan" project... really surviving lar...hahaha...i mainly in charge of the UMB...hehehe... i'm so damb excited where finally i can do something big yo... then only realized that my boss actually thought i knew the system where he said nvm...learn now....wah...amazingly i do not know anything...i've learned from scratch.. there's where i running around to grap things for testing... i think got loose a bit weight geh...hahaha...joking lar...

1st night
having those very kan cheong and excited feeling where finally... me grow up lar...lepak at midnight...actually not lepak lar...but working.. so got myself prepared and left my house at 11:30pm and reached around 11:45pm...imagine..how near my house lar...wuahahahaha...
then prepared all my stuff such as phones and test sim cards next to me and some with my colleague. when the vendor finished setting up...we are good to go and start our testing..woo...
there goes all the phone being pick up and start pressing those buttons such as *128#... it has being repeatedly press..i dont know...roughly more than 100 times i guess...wuahaha... where 3 times we tested in different mam or can said is servers... for postpaid side will be roughly 100 test cases... 100x3 times = 300..??????? wah..... and the whole activity are running very smooth and the vendor are very frenly and patient where he jokes around with us...most keng wan is that he very confident in his system.. yup...successfully 100%....hurray...1st night...yup...
a lovely and satisfied one...4am it is...another 2 hours to wait where i'd spent my hours checking emails and trying to solved some of the Job orders...hmmm..so hardworking..wuahaha.... 6am...gone home and took a big sleep....

2nd night
this one would be the VCA(value card application) where it is regarding the reload system. i'd being assigned to lead the migration where the testing will be done by my colleague and i'm the one making decisions and sending out emails to inform the involve parties the status of the migration...so so...here we go...the vendor started at 12am... 1st script started and run successfully where about 1am...we checked on it and yup...the vendor can start the following script where it hit the target we want..yatta~~ so meanwhile...me getting a bit bored...but ah..notty and do not want to do daily work...so i went on to check on the internet...watch some football videos...then sudd...guess what happened...wah~~my connection start having prob and i cant even connect to the internet already...ah~~~ no more streaming...nooooooooonooooooooo~~
then my colleague said to me:" hahahaha...watched video lar..that's y...now cannot stream...=p" then he proceed with the testing where i kept restarting my pc...till i gave up...half dead without anything to do...
suddenly the vendor shout out a bit...eh!! what happened? why the connection down...i can't connece to the system...(hmm..interesting...where the colleague that teased me has to find out the prob and solve the issue...me laugh laugh a bit lar...) it took roughly few hours to solved the issue and we din manage to complete it...so ar...consider failed and the colleague that teased me just now...told me something wonderful....hahaha=p... dun worry...part of the learning process ler... last time i had to redo till 5 times only successful...weii!!! dun scare me lar...hahaha.... so we are forced to rollback all the steps and arrange another night for this.... gone home and rest...
wuahaha...

to be continue...

Be yourself

2008-09-13T08:16:00.000-07:00

hmm... today in our youth services that so great my pastor shared something about living life confidently... it is so close to my heart where a lot of things happened lately and a lot of things needed make decision by my own and thought of a lot aspect before making the decision... alot of times that i might not confident in myself where the messages had shown me how great God is making us so unique and no one ever can replace us...our character and attitude are none other yourself having it... that's where i enjoyed my working life now...moving on from the serious broke up where a lot ppl said it is good thing... where i think back now...yup..it is true that i can do my own thing and serve God truely with all my heart and mean while search for the right one...wuahaha...

one of the songs that touch my heart so deeply is none other from casting crowns - who am i
the lyrics goes like this....

who am i
that the lord of the earth
would care to know my name
would care to feel my hurt

who am i
that the bright and morning star
would choose to light the way
for my ever wandering heart

not because of who i am
but because of what you've done
not because of what i've done
but because of who you are

i am flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
a vapor in the wind
still you hear me when i'm calling
Lord, you catch me when i falling
and You told me who i am
i am Yours

who am i
that the eyes that see my sin
would look on me with love
and watch me rise again

who am i
that the voice that calm the seas
would call out through the rain
and calm the storm in me
_____________________

something great where i learned to be more patient and see things more optimistically... nothing cannot be solve...just that you need to have faith and know that all things are possible for our saviour - Jesus!!! be confident...so i definitely know there will be a breakthrough in my family and definitely the problems in my family can be solve...

Daily routine

2008-09-10T02:34:00.000-07:00

it has being a while i've not write here bo...
life is going awesome and wonderful where i enjoyed the working environment where i'd learned a lot from DiGi. 1st time doing migration, the 1st time experience will not be very boom-bas-tic but it is a great time where me able to learn from seniors and vendors where we share knowledges among each other... coming into office at night have not tried but sound awesome wei... cold some more... haha... tonight going to be another one where more to comes after i've joined the project team...hehehe...now gonna scare that not enough sleep ler...

that's the good time elr...
where issues and problems always occured no matter how good life is... family issues will be one of the reason that drained my stregth...haha.. my family are great but just that recently something that causes us a lot of burden and money can said are one of the factor where me sometimes struggle to go through every single month... huuuuuuuuuuuu~~ but thanks God that i'm still serving cheerfully in church...be with me... give me strength and optimistic thinking to move on... although sometimes that's time i start to think something nonsense lar...it trigger me back to think of Him ler....GOd is great!!! yeah....
my dad are one of the person that caught in the issue where he has been stress over during the whole thing where a lot of things he had not explained to us what happened exactly and many side of stories we heard from people... hmmm... tough tough... but what to do lar.... my dad... hehehe...there's always problems here and there ler... so it is depends how we overcome and take it... me have to be strong to keep moving on and shall not fall that easily... but ar...wah sai...too many things to complain...haha... shall cont in the coming post....yeah...
smile always....

Bank Account

2008-08-20T23:03:00.001-07:00

something that is great where i read...want to share with u guys out there...

This is AWESOME....something we should all remember.

A 92-year-old, petite, well-poised and proud man, who is fully dressed each morning by eight o'clock, with his hair fashionably combed and shaved perfectly, even though he is legally blind, moved to a nursing home today. His wife of 70 years recently passed away, making the move necessary. After many hours of waiting patiently in the lobby of the nursing home, he smiled sweetly when told his room was ready.

As he maneuvered his walker to the elevator, I provided a visual description of his tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been hung on his window

'I love it,' he stated with the enthusiasm of an eight-year-old having j ust been presented with a new puppy.

'Mr. Jones, you haven't seen the room; j ust wait.'

'That doesn' t have anything to do with it,' he replied.

'Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time. Whether I like my room or not doesn't depend on how the furniture is arr anged .. it's how I arrange my mind. I already decided to love it. 'It's a decision I make every morning when I wake up. I have a choice; I can spend the da y in bed recounting the difficulty I have with the parts of my body that no longer work, or get out of bed and be thankful for the ones that do.

Each day is a gift, and as long as my eyes open, I'll focus on the new day and all the happy memories I've stored away. Just for this time in my life.

Old age is like a bank account. You withdraw from what you've put in.

So, my advice to you would be to deposit a lot of happiness in the bank account of memories!
Thank you for your part in filling my Memory bank.
I am still depositing.' Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.

Cheers!

God bless U.

Another awesome week ahead

2008-08-20T18:59:00.000-07:00

wooooo...another week is gonna end already...it is an awesome week..
as usual getting on with my sports daily....badminton, futsal, paintball and stuff lar...chun stuff...
last friday would be a blast for me because we do not need to work wei... whole day off without need to face the laptop and doing support to the users where we are hanging around DiGi building to run around and play around..hug around...(oops)...

DiGi organized an event called D'Challenge where 1600 staffs are entitled to parrticipate and not work....walaueh~~ chun~~~ so we are devided into 4 clans and there are: Star Wars, lord of the rings, pirattes of the carribeans and harry potters... so all the departments are seperate into the clans according to what they like ler... me ar...star wars lar the winning team (although din win at the end) come come...show u guys what we did last friday... some highlights of fun moments:

then the fun begin where we started our plantation plan 1st...
the next would be our decoration and human pyramid yo....painful ler....knee with bruises all over d...

the other activities would be...jeng jeng...

the fashions show begun between the clans: fuyoh~~

the yoda join in the troop to do some cheerleading..although a bit weird...can tahan lar.. some more taller...=p
our queen of IT technology department...most of the head of department needed to dress something...so she's the queen in lord of the ring.... the above is CFO...hehehe
this group ar...ahahahhaha...badminton supporters where chong wei vs hyun il in the semis.... great fans...i joined them also..hahaha...

the actual wars begun...all the warriors getting prepare and fight fight fight...

dinner is served after a long long day of playing, gilaying...and exhaustion... makan...feasting...
some light performance...but they are great...
my moments during resting time...

end of the day...till quite late lar...hahaha... sweet memories...

It's a not happy and happy day on 3rd August 2008 Part 2

2008-08-04T00:24:00.000-07:00

The Passion Conference Kuala Lumpur had come to town...yatta~~~
it is a great blast for all the youth to come together to pray along for the next stop in Jakarta. I really enjoyed the whole session in Sunway convention centre where Louie Giglio gave a wonderful preaching session about 'Grace' and shared a great testimonial that God had touched a person called Asley life and transformed her....it is just so great where you can't stop thanking Him the one our God...Jesus!!!!! he is just so great and awesome and always there to forgive and lift us up!!!

then...as usual...the praise and worship session is proudly brought from Chris tomlin....Fuyoh!!!!! and Charlie Hall...this 2 are the great worship leader in the country...eh eh...in the world... the songs that they brought are really awesome and meaningful where it really brought us into the atmosphere of praising our Lord 110%... the screaming and the jumping..the dancing and laughter together with the people of about let say...5,000 people...wooooooooooooooooooooooooooo... it is truely can't imagine and can't be describe where the moment with God are so so so so so so so so so strong.... Thanks Jesus!!! can't wait for another conference..not only from Passion...

here are some highlights.....hehehe..bare with me...the camera not keng enough... so so...like that lar....

here are some video yoo.....

second one...hehehe

It's a not happy and happy day on 3rd August 2008 Part 1

2008-08-03T23:50:00.000-07:00

hmmm...how do i start with this...
it is the 3rd of August...a wonderful sunday where we going to church yo...
but i'd decided to go to the airport to send off one of my churchmate/friend/good friend... XueYuan to US. It is a very down moment where we spend a lot of time chatting and hang around in church.
She is a very nice person with nice character where she always laugh and jokes around...with those lame jokes...you wouldn't believe what she can do where a lot of them saying that she is very quiet but after you get to know her and hang around with her...you will know and amaze...

the whole atmosphere were very down and gloomy among the girls where she keep herself always smiling(her icon...sweet ler)

we had a small gathering at the KLIA mcdonald..while everyone trying to catch up with her as much as possible...hehehe...even finding path way to see her till the gate....

here comes to most touching and sad moment where everyone sending her off with a warm hug and final say to her before she entering the gate

Really gonna miss her so so much where she's really a nice and wonderful friend that i have known since the day i joined CLCM and spend lot of times with her and others as well. haih...my dear laughing machine had gone to US and i'm gonna be laughing all by myself when i saying lame jokes...wuahahaha=P she really a good partner though...lame lame sama sama... that's why never judge a person by his or her cover...wuahaha... so this is the final pix where she is checking into the departure gate where i requested her to pose a bit lar...
But me...eh..not only me lar...we will be praying for her to reach safely and enjoy her studies over in san francisco...it is her wishes to go over and we will always support her...hehehe..btw..she coming back in May next year to renew her passport...we will be meeting her soon...see got put on weight bo lar....
God Bless Her for whatever she Do!!!!

Tough Days

2008-07-30T01:08:00.000-07:00

my 1st own bloggie yo....but started with a more down feelings ler...tomorrow a better day!!! yeah....
it is mid of the week already where i'm having some tough time in term of spiritually, mentally and physically. Everyday have to think about the family issue that i'm facing currently and the coming burdens that i need to pick up due to some issue happened is kinda tiring and stressful but manage to get pastors and friends support and it actually loosen a bit lar... it is a huge issue where i never thought of will happened and it is a really big test that put right in front of me to decide what to do... life is not easy and challenging all the time... huh.... some more recently heard a news that my senior in work that are going to leave in 2 months time giving some headache as well where i need to be more independent on myself and pick up whatever i can before he leaves.... kinda struggle a bit in my own quiet time to make it consistent where the time of resting is less and always tired. maybe is time to rest a bit and keep myself fresh. keep my mind clear so that i can face the next day in confident and ready to face whatever coming in my way. build my spiritual walk with the Lord is priority. hehehehe....but i can say thanks Lord i still can enjoy the days for sometimes...Dont give up!!!

Don't give up

2008-07-29T23:05:00.000-07:00

Don't give up.....

One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
'God', I asked, 'Can you give me one good reason not to quit?'
His answer surprised me...
'Look around', He said. 'Do you see the fern and the bamboo?'
'Yes', I replied.
'When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I t ook very good care of them.
I gave them light.
I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.
'In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would
not quit.' He said.
'Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared
to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6
months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.'
He asked me. 'Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots'.
'I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you.'
'Don't compare yourself to others.'
He said.
'The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern.
Yet they both make the forest beautiful.'
'Your time will come', God said to me.
'You will rise high'
'How high should I rise?'
I asked.
'How high will the bamboo rise?' He asked in return.
'As high as it can?' I questioned.
'Yes.' He said, 'Give me glory by rising as high as you can.'
I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.
For the Prayer is not an option but an opportunity.
Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is,
tell the problem how Great the Lord is!

You never know when GOD is going to bless you!! Good things happen when you least expect them to !!!